Saturday, August 27, 2005
Oh dear. Recently I have been doing the wrong things. Mentioning things that are not correct or doing the things that are incorrect. Like today.
First.
I brought the wrong organiser out. Hence I didn't have the customer's number with me and had to call back to get the information. Should be prepared with everything.
Second
Went to another customer's place. Don't really know the facts and just tried to smoke my way through. It was obvious that the customer did not believe the things that I had answered him.
Third and the Worst!
Told a customer that one of my colleague was asssigned to him when actual fact he is not! Oh dear. What should I do??
Friday, August 26, 2005
hmmm.... Today basically I was so lazy to do anything. But in the end i still dragged myself to attend the badminton session that I usually have with the gang. Wanted to go for a jog subsqently however, we chatted till 7pm. Better go home as mum would had prepared dinner. If not she would definitly nag at me later.
Haha.. I think its just an excuse for me to not to go jogging that is all. How many a times that I know that she would nag but I would just go n do it. Mwahaha..
We were discussing about relationships today and it made me realised that maybe breakup due to a 3rd party isn't that bad afterall. No doubt that its not a good feeling for the person who was being cheated. However if we look at it from another point of view?
The other party may feel that the other person other then you is a better choice to be with for the rest of his/her life. Hence that person decided to give up and not to prolong the "suffering" that the both of you may face if it drags on. In addition, this relationship hence may not result in a happy ending or a happy journey in the end. By breaking up, the other party is giving you another chance in looking for the better one or the more suitable one. The 3rd party presence just proves that the both of you may not be as happy as you think you would be if you are together. This also goes to shows that the other person may be able to lead a better life and you would have a chance in getting a more bliss life.
It sound logical right? But when it happens on you, I do not think that I would be able to accept things as mentioned above. Lets say that I am the person who is being äbandoned. I would feel so miserable and keep wondering whats wrong with me that my partner preferes another person. The level of confidence would hence be lowered to the lowest point.
If I am the 3rd party, I would wonder if my partner would react the same way if another more suitable gal comes along. Hence there would be the lack of security. Yes, one may say that you have to be confident of yourself. But I think there is not longer trust in it. Will it work out?
Seriously I don't think that i would want something like this to happen to me. I also hoped that i would never be in either one of these positions as mentioned above.
Shut Up!
That was what he said when I just commented that the guy deserved it. To me its the truth. In the show, the guy does not want to pay alimony to the wife. Although the wife initially does not deserve it, the guy also should not lie his way through to not to pay her. If he didn't lie about the debts that he had to pay, I would feel that the lady is too much. However, the guy did lie and even gloat about it. So I felt that he should be taught a lesson instead.
Anyway it is just a show! Does he need to react that way?
I am so angry. Does he have to react that way to me? I just commenting just as he did just that our views are different. I am so hurt.
I am not going to talk to him for the next few days! Will not stay home. Dun feel welcome at all. Can't even watch the shows I want to. He just sits there and rot! Don't even wash his hands after eating with them! Yucks! The area which he is sitting just stinks and sticky.
Why do I feel so down and out these few weeks. Feel that life is not that meaningful at all. Nothing seems to go right for me.
Everyone has something to say about me.
Everything I do seems to be wrong.
All are negative results. Maybe I should start to reflect again. Usually would do it while on my way to somewhere. Maybe I should continue to do it. However, nowadays I realised that I have nothing much to reflect on. When the bus is moving, I do see that my life is just moving pass me so quickly but I am not able to do anything about it.
I need to have a goal and an aim in my life. I cannot carry on like this. What should I do then? I do not want to go home after work. Its so boring! I need to find something to do.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Its the end of the week and finally Friday is here again! Although Tuesday was a public holiday for all of us, this week seems to be a long week for me. Had tution on Wednesday night, went for dinner with colleagues on Thursday and suppose to have another session of tution today but it was cancelled the last moment. Haha. That was kind of a relief for me. Was kind of tired today although I didn't do much in the office.
Throughly enjoyed the fireworks on National Day when I was out with Jane and Saini. The fireworks were spectecular! However, the journey home was horrible. We were at the esplanade and wanted to make our way back to the City Hall MRT station, however due to the road blocks that were there, we were not able to make our way there. We wanted to walk through the underpass, but it was jammed packed with people. Hence we opted walking outside. Outside, we weren't allowed to cross the road hence we ended up at MS. At MS, we found it hard to cross again and decided to go to the cafe for a drink. We lost our way in MS due to the renovations which were still ongoing. Finally we decided that we should slowly make our way back to station. While on our way there, we were also prevented from making the last lag to the station. We tired means and ways to get across but haha ended up crossing at the same place after some attempts. When we reached the station finally, we breath a sigh of relief. I do not think that would go and watch the fireworks again if the parade is at the Padang again.
Dinner last night was kinda of fun. We had exposed that one of our colleagues is attached and we made fun of him. Maybe its due to his soft nature that the rest thought that it might be hard for him to find the right one. Hence they had never expect that he would be able to find one without the aid of anyone. It was so funny they asked questions and Ber kept laughing.
"eh when did you all first hold hands?""
"What is her name?" " Oh.. sounds so quai those kind"
"Where she lives? Oh my area huh? Don't let me catch you with her there huh"
haha.. Damn funny boy
Thursday, August 4, 2005
I need a space to vent out my fustrations. There isn't anyone whom I can really talk to when I need to. Just don't want to let other people hear me nag or grumble about things that are my worries. Sometimes I really wish that there is someone beside me. Then I would be able to turn to that someone whenever I need a listening ear. However, it has already been a few years already since I last have someone by myside. Beginning to not to remember how was it like to have a partner. Is it really that good? Seen all those who have partners seems to be so happy. But how can I forget the dark side of it? The part whereby both party are not happy with each other and start to quarrel?? How I dread that feeling. Maybe its this feeling of dread that resulted in my status of being single for these few years. Its not that there isn't anyone who is interested. Just that I dun feel that they are the ones. But I am I thinking too much? No one is perfect, so how to find that perfect person? Even I am not perfect. Sometimes feel like hitting myself in the face for the things that I have done or said. I am also a person with a lot of friends. So I am not those people who are not sociable. Maybe I am too sociable that they are afriad of such person? Or they have already catergorise me as one of them? Instead of being a gal, I am already one of their budddies.
Hmmm... Most likely this is the case I guess.
