Monday, September 26, 2005
Was expecting it to be a raining morning and day. Instead, the weather was so warm and it didn't rain till just now. Was hopping to be able to get enough rest today. With the rain, it would be nice to snuggle in bed. Too bad. Things did not go my way.
Woke up with irritated as the phone rang early in the morning. Who answered the phone? Who else but me. Nobody would wake up and ans one. Hiaz. SO when mom asked me too many question i blew my top at her. She started to scold ppl around the house. I know that i should not be blowing my top at her. But its really irritating when she ask the same kind of question over and over again.
What made me realised then was that she would usually like to say this: "Next time dun tell me about your problems then. I dun want to hear about them." As this is not the first time she said this. Previously i just told her that i would accede to her request. However, I realised today that i have not talked to her about any of my problems since she started to tell me that.
It seems that she was angry and told me off saying that by telling other ppl they may not be able to give me the right advise. Haha. I also realised that I have not been telling anyone about my problems. Been keeping it to myself. Is this because i dun have any problems or I had started to keep things to myself instead?
I am so tired. How I wish that I would be able to find someone to talk to? Someone whom i can confide in any time any where.
