In the past few days of my work, I have the huge urge in me to tender my resignation or to seriously look for a job. Work is becoming more and more and more dreadful to me. I can't never seem to finish the job which I have on hand and more jobs are waiting for me to be completed. Then again if there are no jobs for me before I could complete the current one, then I will be out of job soon. Hiaz. Life is always so contradicting. I guess I will really need a break from work and really rest and relax for a while.
So I will really be looking forward to the training trip which I will take when I head over to Bangkok next week. So friends, I will be away again from the 8 to the 11 July 08.
While at a customer site today, a conversation which I overheard made me ponder over things a little. The customer was interested in getting some actual samples which they will need for their cancer research work. As they are not in the Pathology Department, they are unable to obtain samples easily for their work as the Pathology Depart requires most of the tumors for their own work. So today a Dr from the Pathology Department visited my customer's lab and assisted them in searching for the remaining tumors on the tissues which they have in hand. During the process, he informed my customers that in time to come the tumors will be smaller then it will be hard for the researchers to obtain any samples. When I hear this, I was elated. I felt that there is hope for everyone now. With the advancement of science maybe, maybe we can eliminate cancer and tumors
However during the process of their conversation, they were discussing the sizes of the tumors, how the human samples were treated before it reaches this stage. As their conversation progress, I was reminded of my family. (They were having the conversation beside the equipment which I am repairing hence I could hear everything. I did not purposely eardrop on them) Why you may ask. Well, my family has a history of cancers and at this point, one member of my family is in the mist of receiving treatment for her illness. I wondered if there will be a cure her or this illness which is plaguing my family.
I started to feel emotional again as I know that my aunt is suffering before treatment started for her. She had kept her silence all the while as she was afraid of the type of treatments she has to go through as our other family members did. However, the way that the scientist and the pathologist were discussing it was like they were disussing the weather or any other thing. All without feelings. But to me, they seems to be discussing about my aunt. I know that they don't mean things that way but I just felt a little sad. Maybe I felt this way as I felt that there were a lot of uncertainty for my aunt. I felt lost that I could not help her to feel better or as before she contracted the dieases. I am lost.
